Bits Of Today’s Happenings

Today is my little brother’s first day in junior high school. Seeing him wearing the white-blue uniform reminds me again and again that time flies really fast. I’m becoming older. It’s quite unpleasant to think of it. Like I wrote yesterday, growing up is not a fun thing for me. Haha.

Anyway, nothing special happened today. There was only this disturbing dream I had when I was taking nap earlier. So I’ve told you before about my dream which involved many frogs covering my whole body. This time it wasn’t me who was becoming the victim, but this unknown girl who acted as my roommate in my dream. She called my name, then I turned around and she was like, “You gotta help me. Please.” She lifted her skirt a bit to show the upper part of her legs and the inside of her body was filled with this moving bugs (I assume they were roaches). HUNDREDS OF THEM, INSIDE HER BODY, JUST SWARMING AROUND. Okay, that was seriously disturbing. And the horrible part is that I just can’t get the mental image out of my head. Even now, I still feel sick about it. Ugh.

Okay, moving on.

It is 11PM in my place and I dare myself to download episodes of Scariest Places on Earth and Destination : Truth. Haha. Okay, too much ONTD!Creepy heightens my interests in the supernatural world. I know very well that after watching them I will be totally freaked out but, what can I say, they are highly addictive. :p

And just now my kitchen door unlocked itself and made some creepy noises. It might be my auntie’s mistake not to have locked the door properly but she said that she was sure she had locked the kitchen door before. WHAT. =_=

Okay, now I’m being paranoid.

Cryptozoology

I’ve been spending this day reading ONTD!Creepy since the morning. The cryptozoology thread is the one to catch my attention the most. Well, basically cryptozoology deals with many unidentified creatures in this world. For example : bigfoot/sasquatch/yeti, Nessie aka The Lochness Monster, The Jersey Devil, The Loveland Lizard, dwarfs, fairies, dragons, etc. You know, things like that. I also read many Irish lore like the story of banshee, The Dullahan, The Changeling, kelpie, the water horse, the mermen and the mermaids.

All of them seem to be existed only in fantasy stories but I stumbled upon some personal experiences about people who actually encountered them. IN REAL LIFE, YES. I read one about a child who was woken up in the middle of the night by the sound of intense scratching from a walk-in closet and that noise turned out to be made by a gnome-like creature. And there is also this story about a girl who was molested by a troll-like creature. WTF. D:

Those ones are creepy. But there is also some stories about people who encountered small men near a forest. They seemed oblivious to their surrounding and just kept ignoring the witnesses. Some people said that those creatures were fairies which inhabited the forests, particularly in the Europe and Scandinavia.

Cryptozoology really fascinates me. I DO NOT want to encounter most of those creatures since most of them seem so malicious but I want to believe that they really exist in this world. Just for the sake of my imaginative mind. I mean, I would like to believe that aliens actually exist somewhere in the universe. It is fun to imagine about their looks, their lifestyles, etc. I might sound weird but I don’t care. Those unsolved mysteries are reaaaally intriguing for me. :p

If you don’t have anything to do, I will recommend reading information about them to fill your spare time. In my opinion, topics about them are really interesting and fun to read. :)

I Wish I Could Be A Child Forever

It’s funny how I really wanted to grow up when I was still a mere child but now that I’m an adult I want to re-live my childhood times and just be a child forever.

Growing up is not fun at all. Sometimes I even think that being an adult is terrifying. You will lose people you love, you have to be responsible for yourself, you have to be independent, and then your health will eventually deteriorate and then you die and that’s the end of your life.

Just now my mother scolded me for the nth times because I don’t seem to willingly participate in managing my parents’ store. She compared me with a few employees who are around my age. I hate it when she does that. What if it is not the job I want to do? I always want to work a travel-related work such as being a tour guide, or those jobs which revolve around literature, like being a translator or even a writer (yeah, that is very unlikely to happen but hey, it’s my dream).

My parents harbor their hope in me. They want me to continue their business but, to be honest, I feel pressured because of that. Sometimes I hate being the oldest child. I hope I can have a brother or maybe a sister so that I won’t be this pressured. I don’t hate my family. I only hate this situation. This matter confuses me to no end. My future is still blurry and I eventually develop a fear in growing up. At first I thought, “Just go with the flow.” But now… I don’t know, it has become a burden. A heavy burden in my back that I sincerely wish to throw away. I want to live a life that I can enjoy.

Damn. Reality sucks.